My Thoughts your Opinion

For quite some time now, I have wanted to post this blog, but I keep forgetting.

It goes like this, as long as you respect me I will respect you

As long as you treat me fairly I will treat you fairly

I will treat you like a family, as long as you don’t take advantage

I will love you back as long as you don’t think me blind and foolish

I will pay you fairly as long as you are reasonable

I will accept my mistake and your advice as long as you are not self righteous

I will obey you as long as I deem it your right and not self imposing

I will not cheat you as long as you are true to me and honest to me

Tell me the truth and I will accept your faults gladly without any judgment

Caution me if you deem my actions wrong and I will listen to you

My allegiance is to no one, but myself and my God

I will treat everyone equally irrespective of race, color or creed, This I will always strive to do

I will strive to avoid mistakes but not 100% all the time as I am the same as every human out there

I will tell the truth to the best of my knowledge, if you don’t believe me it is okay by me

I am prone to mistakes as it is only human to make mistakes

If you deem my actions contrary please do advice me!!

Over the Holiday, I had had some puzzlements, one of them being that why do they sensor movies here? Okay, you walk into a cinema to see a movie, tagged 18+, but then all the kisses, cuddling, sexual scenes that in my opinion add spice to the movie is blotted out. To even go very far, all the f words, and some swear words are also cut off. Now, why would they do it, well I guess the most logical explanation is that they are protecting those who need protection from seeing and hearing offensive things. To me it isn’t only stupid but useless. The censored movies, doesn’t change the fact that this same people make out in cars, use swear words, do everything some may consider abominable. After all the number of hypocrites are constantly rising. So what are you hiding. It doesn’t also stop the fact that seeing a hot chick on undies or swimsuit brings exponential ideas. Okay, show me a anybody that sees some one half covered up that doesn’t conjure up the full image of what should be shown, whether it be conscious of unconscious. If I had my way, I would go have a one on one talk with those in charge. My belief is that if you don’t want to see it, then don’t see any part of it, coz the inquisitive human in you would look for answers to fill that void that you feel is missing.

I’ve been in Kl for the past three weeks, hanging around with friends, visiting some nice eating outlets and other places, Learning some new stuff… Until last week when I returned to kuching, back to my humble abode. So far, its been quite peaceful, though a bit boring coz I’ve been sitting in all day, sleeping, watching movies, and just eating. Over the past three weeks I’ve had ample time to review my character, my belief, my values and some other random ideas. Gladly, I have come to realized that some things need to be thrown into the garbage. Two on the list, is my unseriousness towards life, and my inability to listen to people . I just hope that I am able to see this face of my life through. Over the holiday, I have tried to pinpoint a reason, why my friends need me, why I need them, and what they want from me, or what I want from them, frankly, the list and the possibilities are endless. I guess my only redemption in this case is take life as it comes, while allowing room to be tolerant and understanding. My belief has always been that, everyone has strengths and weaknesses, only when we can tolerate others strengths and weakness, can we be able to leave in true simplicity with life. I have had the opportunity, to meet really nice people, some bad ass nigers, and some random strangers, but most of all I have always valued them for what I see in them, not what I want to see in them. Sadly at times, some people only want to see what they want in people, which to me isn’t just selfish, but wicked. It is my belief that people should understand that in life. May be I may be right, I may also be wrong, I leave you to judge… As I go on and see things differently, I will always pour my heart out…

Music! music! music! One of the things I know that brings people together, Imaging the felling you get when listen to a music that expresses you particular situation. Well, it may sound as a surprising to you, that I really love music. I mean good music, by good. I mean music that has meaningful lyrics. So if you feel bored, lost or even confused, try a pop suiting music or any music that you can identify with, coz in the end you can’t help butter how, all fits perfectly well in the end.

Before I left my country on september 18, 2006, I saw a beautiful advice carved on a slate
and decided to copy it. I was surprised that i had still had it, so i decided to post it on this blog,

Take time to think, It is the source of power
Take time to play,its the secret of perpetual youth
Take time to be friendly, it is the road to happiness
Take time, to work, it is the price of success
Take time to pray, it is the greatest power on earth
Take time to love and be loved, it is the way to God.

Quite often, we forget to say thank you, and to show appreciation for what we have accomplished with the help of others, even with a simple thank you and even lots of other things in life that adds positivity to our lives that have some how slipped us by. For this reason, I’m writing this post to say, thank mummy for your support, your undying belief in me. You were there to point the way when everything seem unachievable, you were there to watch me get well when i fell sick, and for all the endless sacrifices, sleepless nights you took to watch over me, Thank You. To my dad, for being there even when i saw no value, for trying to make me a better man, Thank You. To my brothers, for your countless advices, your support and for guiding my path, Thank You. To my friends, for your undying support, your encourage and advices, to make me better, Thank You. And to all those who contributed to my life in one way or another that I am missing out, Thank You. To God, for watching over me, for doing impossible things for me, for all the countless things you have done for me, I can’t say thank You enough, and will always continue to say thank you…

Some times in life, what we want we don’t get, what we don’t appreciate initially, we get. After my last post, i decided to think my actions through, after much though i realized that God wasn’t really the cause of my problem, i was. So i decided to take things simple and let life take its way.

For One I am happy I have concluded my exams for the semester. What the outcome may be, I can not tell, what will follow, I can not plan, but I do know that i’ll still move ahead. Now back to some of the events for the last few weeks, I managed to cart away some of my stuff, thanks to my friends, who were there when I needed them the most, and now I’m back to the rebuilding stage again, where i get to get use to my new environment, adjust my way of life, and then get to grow up some more.

Oh, i did forget to tell why I really loved and appreciate the Gawai festival. For one I was able to prove to my self that not every thing seems to be as it appears to be, and I couldn’t help but envy the love with which the families use to come together and celebrate thanks giving, welcome visitors and even in the face of certain pagan ways, they are still able to appreciate God and say thank you. Wow, it really is amazing! To some extent some one I now see as friend still miss-interprets my intentions as a foe. well I guess I have little to say in this case, funny enough they don’t even have a legit reason. Yap, before I forget, how come all the guys who go for a girl some times gets tossed away, and the girls who are tripping gets overlooked? Well I guess I don’t know, and may never get a satisfactory answer. But I often wonder how cool it would be, if a girl gets to tell you how much she would want you to date her if she has a crush on you. I bet it is easy for them to say no, they are not interested, and easy for a guy to say he is interested than they would confess to a guy they are tripping for him. Ladies out there why?

And sometimes I wonder why girls give innoccent excusses without reasons…Well I may never know… Just saying… just giving my opinion… Though I might sound cynical, but I can’t help being honest if its the only sane thing I have at my disposal. Well I’ll see how my holiday unfolds and how my future gets shaped. To all you out there taking time to go through my silly daily life, thank you all… and please do leave some comments no matter how bizarre… They are very much appreciated and welcomed…

After planning what to for about two weeks I finally did it. I Went to selangor for my one week break, instead of a week I stayed for almost two weeks. The good part was that I met a few of my friends, went to my previous college and ate a lot. The bad part is that i had so much work pilling up to do that i feel restless now. But before my school work contributed its part, I missed my flight and a whole bunch of events took place after that. Lucky enough I was able to make it back to school. While I was in the plane I decided to review my life and fix the part I felt needed fixing. After much consideration I came to a conclusion that I needed to improve my school work and my behavior towards others. At the same time I came to a conclusion that weather its culture right or morally right i want a girlfriend. Some how I have been looking around, and I’m trying as much as possible to avoid a nasty outcome. For now that’s all I can muter, perhaps i will do some more writing soon

For a long time now I haven’t been able to post a proper post. Well Thank God, the long break is over and I’m finally in Uni. I must say, I have never been so excited in my whole life as this time. The mere thought of starting afresh, believing in what is to come and meeting new people has never been so welcomed in my life before. I got to kuching alright, and believe me, its a world apart from the rest of Malaysia. Got nice places and has a chilling effect of a local setting in a modern world. So far so good, I haven’t had problems except that the transport system is not quit impressive, If you are a cab fan, you are most welcome to this part of Malaysia, if you are bus or train fan, you certainly would find kuching not so welcoming. to crown it all, the text books I need for school, is not in kuching, and i have to wait another three months or travel to KL to get it myself. God help…

Today, I had to finish my video. Though now as I’m writing this it’s not complete. I get to meet one of my most avoided enemy. Though I am begging to know now that its just her character. well Frankly I kinda like her because of the way she talks and because she seem impossible. Now that aside some times I kinda f’ see her as an old fellow with old face and some times she looks  pretty (but certainly not pretty enough for me to ask out). Well I hope my plan works by the end of the semester.